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What Having Long Hair for 3 Years Taught Me About Life
Before deciding to grow my hair 3 years ago, I had never had long hair. My whole life, I liked a short haircut. It was efficient, hassle-free, cheap… I didn’t care too much for aesthetics or anything like that. I just didn’t want my hair to be something I had to think of. In fact, I’m only saying this after 3 years of having long hair. Before that I couldn’t even fathom the concept of “having to think about my hair”. My hair was literally never in the picture.
For most of my adult life I’ve always been about efficiency. It took me a long time to find what to dedicate my energy to, and before that I was always all over the place. I would pick up something and drop it a few weeks or a few months later. I would spend weeks building a project, spending my energy on something, and then I’d never release it. I was always looking for stuff to do just to be productive, to crush it. It’s kind of exhausting to be like that. It’s being hard on yourself for no specific reason, and it becomes even more a problem when it’s affecting people around you too.
I would get irritated (or mad) at people for not being at the same level as me, whether in terms of energy or in terms of skills. In hindsight, I can tell this was ludicrous. Someone would show up late at a meeting and I’d be annoyed for the rest of the time. I would expect people to keep…
